Real Trust

"Real trust isn't believing that God will do things as we expect he should; it is, rather, believing that whatever he does is good and perfect. We will only find relief from fear if we relinquish our expectations of what we think God ought to do for us and ask him to create within our hearts a trusting expectation for what he wills to do. If we are willing, we will find that his ways are far better than anything we could have chosen for ourselves."

~Trust: A Godly Woman's Adornment by Lydia Brownback, P.76

Another Year, Another Milestone

I can't believe it's been 4 years since Christian started school. He started going to public school for pre-school when he was 3 yrs old. We are so blessed that he receives all his therapies and special services at school. We've been really pleased with his care so far.

Each year, I get teary eyed as I think back to my pre-mature baby lying in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU) wondering if he would live to see another day. Seven years later, I'm still in awe of God's goodness. It definitely has not been easy, but God has definitely been faithful! Praise the Lord that His faithfulness to us doesn't depend on our wavering faith. Most parents look forward to their 2nd grader learning how to add double digits or comprehend a reading passage. However, the Lord is teaching me that Christian's worth is not about his abilities or reaching man-made milestones. It's all about rejoicing in God's goodness and how He has uniquely made my son for His glory.

God will fulfill His purpose for my son (Ps 57:2, 138:8) even if that purpose includes being non-verbal, not potty-trained, having to be fed, bathed, etc. Lord, help me to joyfully embrace that. You are good beyond my understanding and on this first day of school, your goodness shines so brightly. In Christ, I rejoice!